Again

I’m recovering from my acute on chronic flare of Tourette’s Syndrome (read : uncontrollable leakage of expletives). The ward is still saturated with work and shitty happenings. I’m still pulled in many directions, complete with impending deadlines and hard starts.

All of which I have no power against.

Though it’s getting easier to deal with.
All of which is mainly thanks to the continous support from my loved ones.
Thank you..

Being in the service line is extremely taxing. The bitchy customers to deal with, sickening egotistical colleagues to haggle through, meeting the sky high expectations of my supervisors and the never relenting shit load of work that I earnestly drag myself up for to feed my family and self.

Still, its better then getting beaten.

Quite recently, Rihanna’s bruised and battered face was the talk of town, or at least the entertainment circle. Who would do this to her? The suspect in question is none other then her boyfriend (more like boyFIEND) Chris Brown.

It’s a pity to witness anyone being abused to this extent. And it is a fact that abuse is not contained to the uneducated or poor. Many will scoff at the way she handled matters, especially when she patched things up with Chris Brown and made excuses for his alleged behavior.

This flimsy excuse of being human and making mistakes just cannot be accepted.

And most certainly, nobody deserves this type of shit.

Ross doesn’t understand how a woman can be so stupid. Well, some things are not as easily understood as others. My heart really goes out for her. She expected a loving relationship, not an abusive one.

It’s not easy to separate yourself from an abusive relationship. After all, what began as a hopeful partnership, with all the trappings of romance was never intended to lead to this.

Who can predict a future of violence when love blinds us to all the little clues and build over time? All the abuser is interested is securing their own power in the relationship and has no qualms using whatever means necessary to secure an iron hold on the other party.

A sublime brainwashing that reoccurs time and time again.

By the time anyone realizes, the slight of hand multiplies in frequency and you find yourself settling for violence as normalcy.

When the evidence of abuse is brought to light, you can be sure this is not the first time it happened. And yet, entangled in betrayal, fear and confusion, the victim still finds herself being drawn back into this shit hole of a life.

Jaime Foxx says it best : “No man should ever put his hands on you. No man should ever touch you….I don’t care if he’s 8 yrs old on the preschool, playschool ground… 100 yrs old, it doesn’t matter.”

I hope people realize the implications abuse has both on the perpetrator and the victim, because either one will end up dead in the complicated chaos violence breeds. My heart goes out to everyone with the misfortune of enduring violence.

The only way is out.

Have faith.
Have strength.
Have hope to walk away and live a life worthy of what you really deserve.