Flying Without Wings

Saying time flies is such an understatement. The months have just whizzed by like some nuke on steroids. My month long attachment in an acute and comm hospital is over!! Woohoo..!! What’s left is another 2 presentations, 2 essays and 2 papers before I can finally salute academia a final farewell.

The health assessment was undeniably my worst nightmare. The consequences of laziness and procrastination really slapped me in the face. There were some who clucked their tongues in disgust, chiding my inability to memorize the steps just days shy from the test. Lucky for me, Rams and SI helped guide me through the steps and lock some portions in the ol’ grey matter. Even Ms Joan, who had previously fervently refused to see me for extra lessons, rang the alarm bells after assessing me hours before the actual exam.

She told me I would fail.

I really tried to gather my thoughts but threw my paper away and just laid on the floor outside the examination room in the mid afternoon, which once again brought the onslaught of eyeballing and fresh comments. Hahaha..

Entering the room, I whispered a prayer for God to move my hands. Well, God upped the ante and covered Ms Joan’s eyes! Hohoho... In fact, Rams broke out into palpitations and cold sweat worrying for me! I felt my heartbeat and breathing slow to a crawl and with Rams prompting, glided through the 40 min assessment. Even Ms Joan was surprised, stating the marked difference mere hours ago. With a sigh of relief, Rams hugged and congratulated me inside. We practically jumped for joy! What a sight it was.

Ms Joan said I was very lucky to have friends like them. She’s damn right.

The next 20 minutes saw me frantically scribbling the 3 page long documentation as I squeezed every ounce of info onto the black lines. I’m so glad the torment’s over.

Thank God for Rams, SI and Su.

The gang’s has planned a mini getaway to Genting after exams to unwind and basically just lie around and do nothing. Did I tell you slumping on the floor is my forte?! Hah.. and Malaysia provided the best location due to monetary constraints. Sobs.

I do hope salary fattens up quick cause I’m really dying here. I really do hope I can go Korea in autumn to oogle at men lug bargains back!

Use Somebody - Pixie Lott's Cover

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

And all you know
And how you speak
Countless lovers undercover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night
While you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging war to shake the poet and the street

I hope it's going to make you notice
I hope it's going to make you notice
Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me

Go and let it out
Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see

My faves for the NEXT American Idol =)

Andrew Garcia..!!

Crystal Bowersox!! Doesn't she just look like Drew Barrymore?!

Didi Benami..!!

Action Potential

Akin to an avalanche set in motion, 2010 brought along a myriad of challenges. Once again, I find myself standing at crossroads, with choices urgent and beckoning beyond the horizon.

Certain choices are harder and more painful, whereas some appear absurdly straightforward and simple. However, all choices require me to face consequences squarely. Breathe.

Some like to comment that people change. I’d like to ask who doesn’t. I’m not the wide-eyed 16 year old flipping burgers in the fast food restaurant, nor am I the same as what I am 5 minutes ago.

Just like the earth is round, life revolves.

Not around one singular entity, like a person or possession because life’s much more than that. Biologically, I’m transforming. My neurons are dying and whatever left is desperately trying to establish new connections. Psychologically, my emotions are riding the waves brought about by hormones or an over-stimulating environment. Hoho..

So whether people care to admit or deny, we’re all changing.

Life, in all its complex strata, encompasses experiences that empower if we look beyond ourselves. The path of life at times covered with pebbles can morph into mountains. Each obstacle presents itself with perspectives only we, ourself can control. It boils down to choice.

You can choose to live. Or wallow.

People drift in and out of lives. No doubt all leave footprints behind that impart special lessons especially for me. However, I’ve no interest in people who mop around, dragging their feet in the sands of pity.

I’m due to graduate in just under 4 months. In retrospect, alongside my classmates, we’ve ploughed through ICAs, bio, multiple essays, presentations and even managed to showcase my acting chops in the counseling vid to snag grades that stretch into a smile. As I ready myself for the upcoming finals and the fact that I’ll soon bid school (another) fond farewell, there’s the apprehension of returning to work and what the future may bring.

I’ve no regrets in entering this course. Opportunities seldom repeat itself. Despite the bombardment of assorted assignments, the golden opportunity to learn always sparkles. What I’ve learnt thus far is actually how little I actually know about nursing and it is in fact, rather scary.

I hope my hands carry my patients a little stronger once I’m back by their side.

In this last leg of the journey, I’m cramming whatever I can before I return to the wards. I’m grateful that attachments (no matter how shitty they can be at times) exposed me to different locations alongside their cultural idiosyncrasies.

It's been a priviledge.

Hopefully, I’d be able to reward myself at the end of this tumultuous journey =)

anyone game for walking amongst the clouds?!